Last time I talked about my struggle with finding out who I am. I thought church and being a “good girl” was the answer, but it turns out that I’m a sinner and so are other church members. I thought I was a teacher, destined to teach every working day of my life and touching thousands of lives, but it turns out that most fall seasons I have not had my own classroom. I thought I was going to be a young wife to my high school/college sweetheart and have decades of marital bliss before us, but I had years of singleness filled with bitterness and rebellion towards God (it’s okay, I can say that. Jesus and I have talked about it before, I’ve repented, He’s forgiven, and I’m living a more grace-filled life now).
All those things were my plans, my expectations, my thoughts. Those ideas, intentions, and actions didn’t always line up with God’s Word but they should have, for His Word is our authority for life (Hebrews 4:12; II Timothy 3:16-17; Proverbs 30:5). Furthermore, my thoughts are not God’s thoughts (Isaiah 55:8), what He has planned for me and what He considers important is far above what I can hope or imagine (Jeremiah 29:11).
Once I realized that my identity in Christ is to live to bring Him glory, expand His kingdom, and to serve others, my life changed. It doesn’t matter who is in a church building with me on Sunday (or what they have done) as long as the Holy Spirit is there and I have the opportunity to serve others. It doesn’t matter what my job is, because my life’s work is for His kingdom, not some school district. It doesn’t matter if I’m single and free to focus on the Lord (I Corinthians 7:32), or if I’m married and working through my role as a godly wife (Ephesians 5:33). I live, work, enjoy the earth, laugh, cry, teach, learn, give, and receive all for His glory.
We have found a great church family in Nashville. Of course there are things I wish the church would add, but they are a bible-believing, God-fearing, Kingdom seeking church. I can’t ask for much more. This fall was one of those falls where I didn’t land a job as a teacher. I’ve worked a few jobs during the summer and fall, but my husband and I decided that I would stay home for a season (not sure how long that season is), but I will share why we made that decision later. Lastly, after years of singleness, I met and married my answer to prayer last year. God has blessed our marriage in so many ways that we don’t deserve. His grace has been more than sufficient with my marriage (more on that later, too!).
What has God revealed to you about your identity in Him?